Lily Dawn Bland

Lily Dawn Bland
29/05/2007
Precious daughter of Hayley and Phil, baby sister to Isabelle, Zane, Eden and Identical twin of Daisy.
Taken from us by Twin to twin transfusion syndrome at 37wks.

~~A tiny flower lent not given, to bud on earth and bloom in heaven.~~

Lily's story.

Mummy found out she was expecting you on the 7th October 2006. Her and Daddy were very pleased and your big sisters and brother were very excited.

At 8 wks and 5 days pregnant mummy got very bad stomach pains so i phoned Daddy at work and he rushed home to take me to the hospital. Mummy stayed at the hospital all night but doctors could't find anything wrong, so they sent me home and told me to come back the next day for a scan.

14/11/2006

Mummy and Daddy went back to the hospital and sat together in the waiting room nervously and poor old mummy was bursting for a wee!! We went into the scan room and as soon as the scan started Mummy and Daddy saw that it wasn't just one baby growing in mummys tummy there were two of you and both of you just perfect. Mummy and Daddy laughed lots and lots and Daddy looked a funny colour.
We spent the rest of the day between happiness and shock and spent lots of time on the phone telling people that Mummy was expecting TWINS!!!!

Mummy had a very good pregnancy although she was sick for nearly 5mths, she couldn't even stand the sight of her favourite chinese food!!!!

At 14wks Mummy was told that you and your twin were identical. I was scanned every two weeks. At 18wks Mummy and Daddy were told that you and your twin were GIRLS! We chose the names Daisy Emma and Lily Dawn and we nicknamed you the "Flowertots". You and Daisy grew and grew(and so did Mummy) and the hospital were very pleased.

At 35wks Mummy went for a scan and you and Daisy were both suggled up together, kicking away. I was given an induction date for 38wks. Everyone was very excited that you and Daisy would be arriving soon and poor old Mummy was very relieved because she was so big and uncomfortable. I was to go back at 37wks just to check that you were both head down and ready to be born.

On the 29th May 2007 Mummy went for her final scan, very excited because it would be the last time i would see you on a screen the next time i saw you and Daisy i would be holding you safe in my arms.
Mummy went with her friend Liz who had come to lots of scans before when Daddy couldn't make it, Daddy had been at work the night before and couldn't make it to the last scan he was very sad about that.
As soon as the doctor started Mummys scan i knew something was wrong. First she scanned Daisy whos bladder was very big and she was surronded by lots of fluid, Mummy was very worried at this point. Next she scanned you and although you were not moving it never occured to mummy that you had become an angel. The doctor stopped scanning me and simply said "I'm so sorry one of you babies hasn't made it" I felt like i had been hit by a train.
Mummy and Liz cried lots and lots. We were moved to another room where Liz phoned Grandma to tell her that you had gone. Grandma went to fetch Daddy to tell him about you and send him to the hospital to Mummy.
Sitting in the room with Liz was the strangest feeling in the world i felt so empty and heartbroken i just wanted the news to be wrong for someone to come and tell me the doctor had made a mistake. It felt like it took an eternity for Daddy to arrive when really it was only about 20mins. Daddy came into the room and gave mummy a big cuddle. He asked if i knew which baby was now our angel mummy just put her hand to her tummy and daddy knew, it felt like if i had said your name out loud it would have to be true.

The doctor came to talk to us about what had happend and we were told that you had been taken from us by Acute Twin To Twin Tranfusion Syndrome(TTTS). You had gotten to much blood from your placenta and eventually your little heart could take no more and it had stopped and you became our angel.
Mummy had an emergeny c section and at 14:44 Daisy was born quickly follwed by you at 14:45.
A few hours later in recovery the midwife asked Mummy and Daddy if they would like to see you. Of course the was never any question mummy and daddy despratley wanted to see you.
The midwife bought you in, in a white moses basket, you were wrapped in a white and peach blanket wearing a small white bonnet. My heart broke you were one of the most beautiful, perfect things i had ever seen. You were so small and totally perfect all 5lbs 2 1/2 ozs of you, you had chubby little cheeks and 10 tiny fingers and 10 toes all of them perfect and the prettiest lips.
I just wanted to hold onto you and never let you go. Auntie Emma, Gran, Grandma and Auntie Toni all came to see you and say good bye but only Mummy and Daddy held you because you were far too precious to share.
After holding you for a while Mummy and Daddy decided it was time to say goodbye, we both gave you one last kiss and told you that we loved you.
That will always be the hardest thing i will ever have to do in my whole life. I will always wish that i had spent more time with you but i realise that no amount of time would have been enough and i will always dream that i gave you just one more kiss.

We love you and miss you everysingle day angel xxxx

~~An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. Then whispered as she closed the book "too beautiful for earth".~~

Please watch Lilys Montage here(copy and paste link to web browser)....
http://www.onetruemedia.com/shared?p=3368dc82009898c5296878&skin_id=601&utm_source=otm&utm_medium=text_url